It’s a different sort of writer’s block. I stumbled onto something this evening in the midst of feeling a bit grounded (akin to a plane stuck on the tarmac) that sparked a renewed sense of ambition and hope.
I’ve slowed down with my queries to agents, partially so that I can figure out how I can regroup and make them better, but also partially because I’m feeling like a huge failure. Rejections will do that to you.
I haven’t touched the new story since the last day of NaNoWriMo. I’m losing that excitement I once had about my completed manuscript.
In the last few months I’ve been so focused on what they want to see and what they want to read that some of my own passion has started to slip right through my fingertips. I’ve worried so much about whether my work fits into their boxes that I stopped having fun with it. My motivation disappeared and took my sunshine with it.
That’s where this comes in:
“The dream is to keep surprising yourself, never mind the audience.” (Tom Hiddleston) I’ve read this quote before on the internet, I’m sure of it, but it’s never struck a chord before.
Never mind the audience, Nicole. The moment you write for them is the moment that you fail.
Stop worrying about forcing your book into their molds. It’s not about that; it never was.
It’s about telling the stories as you know them. Anything less is only short-changing yourself.
Thank you, Tom (not that you will ever see this post). You may not have meant it for writers like me, but it fits.
Never mind the audience.